Sunday, July 09, 2006

it... ...

1. I don't remember exactly from when that we stopped talking about it, it's good to skip certain topic and talk more vaguely. There is a giant elephant standing between us, but we both decided to ignore it, and by ignoring it, we somehow believe that it will eventually go away. Clarity does more damage, indeed.

2. My mom and I have been having strange dreams, nightmares to be exact. Empty room, a lot of doors and windows, glasses and mirrors were broken, wind was blowing, a phone call from my deceased grandma, bad news, blood, strangers at the door, fighting, tears... ... and then, we both woke up lying alone in the bed, pondering what it means.

3. I learned something recently that don't hasten to ask questions. Don't get me wrong, you should always ask when you have questions, but sometimes you need to wait, do a little research yourself before you take the shortcut to ask someone else. People judge you from the questions you ask, no matter who they are. It's a sad sad truth, isn't it?

4. She has something that I don't. She finally got what she wishes for and I haven't. What is it that she has that I don't? Faith, a stubbornly strong belief, that passion, that courage, that Love, to hell with all the reasoning, rationality, logic, opinions of others, go after what you want, what you really want.

A lot of dandelions are floating in the air, they are searching for that fertile land, where to set their root in. Sadly, the asphalt road is all they can see. Keep flying, dandelions, there is still a long long way to go before you settle down.