Self Control!!!

Thanks to a recent illness with my stomach, I realized that my lack of self-control is out of control.

Mom said, how come the older you get, the more spoiled you become, in fact, this time, you are spoiling yourself.

Am I? I too wonder why it takes me more time and energy now to take control of myself and get over things. As of there is this big whining baby inside of me, feeding on my leniency toward myself. Everytime I gave myself permission to go over boundaries, she grew a little big bigger and whined a little bit louder. When she is sad, she has to be consoled; when she didn't get what she wanted, she is making everyone miserable. Her appetite is growing, and Im losing control.

Lord, help me get rid of this giant baby inside of me, im growing tired of it.