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my snowman
Originally uploaded by saisai.

Dad made me this snowman, and I still remember it, though the memory is so blurry. as you can see, I was way more photogenic back then. Mom said I never used the same pose twice in front of the camera, I was a natural. unlike now, when I grow so self-conscious and camera-shy. She always says that she likes the smaller-version me better, the little girl who was never shy in front of people, energetic and bold. I would sing and dance impromptu whenever and wherever I was asked to. I was a little entertainer back then and my Grandparents loved to show me off in front of their friends. But as I grow up, I become more reserved as if I've tranformed into another person. where is that part of me? where are you? I know you are somewhere within me, and I need to find you...