Fear

I finally spot my biggest fear -- void. It's like this deep deep hole, that I want to fill up so desperately, anything, give me anything so I can fill it up, be it garbage, TV cords, plastic bags, I don't mind, just as long as I am occupied. It's true that when you start things for the wrong reason, you will never get it right. Okay, dump all the trash out, go back to square 1, and start all over!